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Sep. 30th, 2005 @ 11:25 pm completely lost...
Feeling: sad
i just don't know where to start...

it's been a while since i've updated, for so many reasons, but mainly because i've been so busy and so confused about everything thats happened in my life these past couple of weeks...

last friday i was working at retro volt and at the end of my shift my beautiful, favourite bussie adam came up to me and said "i've got all these messages on my phone, something has happened to pete roberts, i hope he's okay".... i hate to say it, but i brushed it off, because alot of other stuff was going on, jess was upset about that STUPID BOY and there was volt management dramas yadda yadda and i didn't really think about it till the next night when i got into work at volt and adzy told me that pete had been killed in a motor cycle accident the night before... i was surprised and saddened... but to be honest i was more worried about adzy... he was clearly upset and i had no idea why he was even at work... "go home" i told him... "its grand final night, i couldn't do it to you girls" he told me... grand final night is one of the busiest nights of the year for us at volt, and we really needed a great bussie like adam... and he came into work that night, despite the fact that one of his mates died the night before... and we love him for that, we really do... adam will always be one of the greatest loves of my life, whose cuddle on a busy friday night means so much more to me than anyone else's... who's always got a smile and a hug for me, no matter what is going on. I love you Adam Lehmann, and always will, no matter what, or who, comes along...

So anyway, I was upset on Saturday night by the news about Pete... so upset that someone so young, and so lovely could be taken away from us so young... there was a group of boys that used to come into Mischief back in the day, a bunch of boys who were friends with Adam... there was Smudgie with his funky dance moves and his cool hats, there was Mark with his cap and quiet shy smiles, there was Greg, the spunky DJ, and Jerry, the strong silent type... then there was Pete... big grins and cheeky smiles EVERY week... who would order the bourbons, and 1 southern, EVERY week... i remember him because no matter what was going on he treated me the same... the same smile... the same wink... used to give me a thumbs up across the room everytime i caught his eye, and not just cos he knew I'd give him a discount when he came to the bar...

... and now, he was gone... it didn't really sink in for a while tho... i went home on saturday night feeling like i did on most saturday nights... tired and annoyed that i had spent my weekend at volt... but mournful because i knew that adzy was so upset about pete, and because i knew pete too, but also loved adzy so much, i too was really saddened by it all...


sunday morning, andy and i got a rude awakening.. his mum came in at 12 noon (4 hours after we'd gone to bed) and told us "deege has been killed... an hour ago... on his bike..."... andy was in shock... it's hard to explain but deege was andy's sister's (donna's) boyfriend's (shaun's) best mate... he's one of those guys who's always just been there.... at the pub... at every party... at every western magpies footy match... just one of the guys who was always up for a beer...a "boy's boy"... andy was so upset... and so was i... even tho i barely knew Deege, i was already so sensitive to it all, because of Pete... i mean, they both went the same way, both in a motor cycle accident... i don't know the exact details of Pete's accident but I know it was on a bike, and I know Deege was just 50 metres away from home when someone forgot to check their blind spot and did a u-turn, colliding into Deege and killing him instantly... its so horrible...




Yesterday was Pete's funeral... there wasn't much I could do... i didn't really know the guy, and i wasn't about to impose on his family and his friends, but my thoughts were with them... i know Nugget went to the funeral... i sent Adzy a txt, sending my love to him and the boys...

and today was was Deege's funeral... I went with Andy and held his hand while he cried with the other guys who were there... so many strong, tough, bikie types, with their shaved heads and goaties, crying their eyes out for the brother they'd lost so young, so unfairly...

Two guys, so young, both on motorbikes, so innocently, taken from us, take from me and my friends in one weekend... it's so unfair...

Even I, a Christian and a believer of God, am turning to God now, and asking "why???"... why were two beautiful, warm and friendly souls, taken from us, so suddenly and abruptly... why???

It makes you realise just how beautiful, yet fragile life really is, how suddenly it can be plucked out from under you...


So many things are triggering my tears right now... i've spent all day crying for Deege, and before I cried for Pete when seeing the photo's that Greg posted, that reminded me so warmly of the sweet guy that Pete was...

In the last two years there have been so many motorcycle accidents that have touched my life...
some haven't survived...
like.. Joe's brother...
Emma's boyfriend...
Pete...
Deege....

and the lucky few who have walked away wounded,
like Stacey, or Pete, or Fabian...

I told Andy yesterday that there was no way he was getting his motorcycle license... i know he really wants it but there's no way i can sleep at night if he had it... it's bad enough stressing about him being an electrician... whenever I don't hear from him for more than 4 hours I start stressing, convinced something's happened to him... i know its paranoid and i know its silly, but i just can't help but fearing the worst now...

Life is so fragile, and you never know when someone you love or care for is going to be taken away from you....



Today at Deege's funeral his mum, Wendy, got up and had the bravery and strength to give a quick eulogy.... she said ... "deege... you broke my heart, but i forgive you..." and it made me cry so much...
it's not right you know, we're not supposed to out-live our parents... i know its horrible to say, but we're supposed to see our parents die, not the other way around, you're NEVER supposed to see your children get taken away from you...

i just don't know what to say... i'm so upset, i barely even know why... i mean, realistically Pete and Deege were two guys I barely knew, they were just two guys I knew through other friends...

but i suppose the shock of it all...


Life is fragile my dear friends, treasure it closely, near and dear to your heart, and appreciate every moment you have with you're loved ones, as if it were your last. You never know when those you most care about will be taken away from you...


love you all... keep in touch....

Mon.... xoxoxo
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Sep. 8th, 2005 @ 11:51 am yeah well i'm a sheep

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Aug. 29th, 2005 @ 10:01 am To infinity... and beyond!!
So...

I've decided to start a new LJ... i dunno why exactly but for the same reason I'm planning on burning my last journal i suppose - I've reached a point in my life where I am REALLY happy... and whilst my past has made me the person I am today, I find that it affects me every now and then and I just want to let it go...
All of it! The people that have hurt me, the people that I have hurt, and all the bullshit that comes with finding out who you are where your place is in the world!
You think you know everything about everything when you're 18, and then when you're 21 you say "gee i knew nothing when i was 18" and now that i'm 25 i'm finally realising that I still know nothing! but the one thing i do know is the past should be left there, and i sometimes have trouble letting go of the past, so finishing off this LJ is one way i'm going to try and do that!!

and besides... no one calls me mia anymore... so from now on, i will be found at [info]raven_mon
hope to see you there!!
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Jul. 8th, 2005 @ 03:21 pm Monkey Experiment Proves Corporate Policy Process
I think this not only applies to corporate policy, but so many aspects of everyday culture aswell...

EXPERIMENT
Start with a cage containing five monkeys. Inside the cage, hang a banana on a string and place a set of stairs under it. Before long, a monkey will go to the stairs and start to climb towards the banana. As soon as he touches the stairs, spray all of the other monkeys with cold water. After a while, another monkey makes an attempt with the same result, and all the other monkeys are sprayed with cold water. Pretty soon the monkeys will try to prevent it.

Now, put away the cold water. Remove one monkey from the cage and replace it with a new one. The new monkey sees the banana and wants to climb the stairs. To his surprise and horror, all of the other monkeys attack him. After another attempt and attack, he knows that if he tries to climb the stairs, he will be assaulted.

Next, remove another of the original five monkeys and replace it with a new one. The newcomer goes to the stairs and is attacked. The previous newcomer takes part in the punishment with enthusiasm! Likewise, replace a third original monkey with a new one, then a fourth, then the fifth.

Every time the newest monkey takes to the stairs, he is attacked. Most of the monkeys that are beating him have no idea why they were not permitted to climb the stairs or why they are participating in the beating of the newest monkey. After replacing all the original monkeys, none of the remaining monkeys have ever been sprayed with cold water. Nevertheless, no monkey ever again approaches the stairs to try for the banana. Why not? Because as far as they know that's the way it's always been done around here.

And that, my friends, is how a company policy begins.
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Jul. 7th, 2005 @ 11:31 am (no subject)
Feeling: thoughtful
I've been thinking alot about self-image, particularly women's self image, I suppose what upsets me the most is how much things like weight and appearance affect my friends, who i love so much, and I hate that we're also so driven by this desire to be beautiful. I know its really gotten to me lately about some of the weight I've put on, mainly because i worked so hard to take it off, but I know that weight is the least of my worries, particularly with my looming unemployment and my poor health of late.... I would like to say I'm happy with the way I look, but then that would also be a lie.... but i wonder if we, as woman particularly, are conditioned through our societal media-based upbringing to never really be happy with what we look like, simply because we want to have "it all" when it comes to looks. Personality takes a back seat when it comes to self-improvement, you rarely hear people say "i wish I was friendlier" or "i wish i was funnier" but you always hear people say "i wish i was slimmer" or "i wish i had a smaller nose".

It breaks my heart to think of the girls who are starving themselves, and for what? Of all things - looks... I'm not going to sit here and pretend that looks aren't important, because, who would i be kidding, intial attraction is based entirely on looks, but I think we all know that looks aren't everything, the way someone looks becomes a minute part of "them", and i'm sure we've all experienced how someone becomes more/less attractive the more you get to know them based entirely on their personality type. We've all met that HOT person out one night, spent five minutes talking to them and they lose complete appeal and "attractiveness" because of the crap that comes out of their mouths!

I've been browsing some lj communities, and you would be shocked how many pro-ana/mia (anorexia & bulimia) groups there are! There are girls who are openly admitting to having a BMI of 15, and saying they want to be slimmer (for me to have a BMI of 15 I would have to weigh 45 kilos!!!) and other girls who are saying "i'm currently a BMI of 18, but my aim is 16" which startles me because 18 is already underweight!
one thing i've begun to realise is how distorted image really is, because its based entirely on perception. I know I'm unhappy with the way I look (too many kgs, my skin is bad and WTF is going on with my hair?????) but I also know that my boyfriend thinks I look fine, and that is really whats most important. One of the security guards at work tells me I have a beautiful smile which I think is bizarre cos i hate my teeth (too crooked/stained) but every week he says to me "lemme see dat bewdiful smile" and every week I LOVE to hear it... We love to hear compliments from other people, and ultimately we want to look good so other people think we look good, but our idea of good is based entirely on our own (distorted) perception of ourselves, when really, it should be based on the perception (not-so-distorted) of others, since they're the ones we want to make happy. Yes, I know the ultimate goal is to be happy with yourself, but its hard to happy with yourself when others (like my mother) consistantly point out faults (familiar to anyone?: "monita, you have put on weight again" "gee thanks mum like i didn't notice") or when you don't get the attention you so desire. The world is a shallow place and the reality is when i weighed 65 kgs i got approached by men alot more then now, when i weigh 75 kgs. When i lost the weight people said "geez you're looking good mon" and things like that, and believe me, as someone trying to lose weigh, you FEED off this "compliment" and fear that if you put it back on the comment "geez you're looking bad mon" will start coming out of peoples mouths.

I'm not saying the beauty is more important than anything else, far from it, but i just think that (unfortunately) beautiful is something that so many of us would like to be...

And what exactly is this mysterious thing that we all desire to be... beautiful... what the hell is beautiful anyways?!?!? good hair/skin? bone structure? weight/height? Most people would say its a combination of all these things.... Geez you gotta have a lot to be beautiful don't you....

I don't really know where I'm going with all this, i suppose half of me is so happy that my boyfriend thinks i'm "beautiful" whilst the other half of me is really unhappy with the way I look and is desperate for some change and redirection. I fear bringing a daughter into this world one day because I think the manifestation of our own generations obsession with looks will have developed a self-esteem among women to be so horrible and self-degrading, that I wouldn't want anyone to experience it.

Another thing thats bothered me lately is the "what will the neighbours think" mentality. Looking a certain way just to please other people is so weird in itself, but making sure you DON'T look in any way different to anyone else , just to please people, is even weirder... Everyones gotta be the same... "normal"... oooh i hate the word normal. Even when the waitress brings drinks and says "diet coke" when handing me my drink and then "normal coke" when handing my dining partner their drink i think "NORMAL coke? are you implying that my diet coke is in some way ABNORMAL?"

My father came home with the "horrible" news that one of his work friend's daughter's has shaved her head into a mohawk... its funny how ten years ago he was bragging to his mates about what a good child I was, but stopped bragging when I came home with a pierced nose, followed closely by navel and tongue... What is so destructive about these things? Its not like either of us got permanent tattoos of bands across our forheads, or participated in ritual cult killings... I personally believe as long as my kids don't come home with major drug dependancies, strings of unwanted preganancies or massive body mutilations, a few piercings or bad hair cuts isn't going to hurt them. Infact, i would rather my kids express themselves with make-up, clothes and piercings, then feel they have no form of expression or abilty to be "themselves". Sure, it all probably comes down to looking a certain way to please people (peer pressure does wonderful things to a kids outlook) but i'd rather they exercise their right to freedom of expression, then NOT look a certain way becuase I, as a parent, fear what "the neighbour will think" or worse, my work colleagues, or bank manager, who in reality have NOTHING to do with my home life...

I think I have ranted enough, i'm losing track of what i've said, and i've wandered off the topic hahaha

but just to close things off, i'd like to share this pic that i got in my email today...
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May. 9th, 2005 @ 02:54 pm COG COG COG
oh yeah, for those of you who are cog fans...they are on Live At The Wireless tonight on Triple J @ 8:00pm
miss it and you're a fool.
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Apr. 9th, 2005 @ 06:49 pm ring... ring... why don't you give me a call?
Feeling: pissed off
Listening to: The Used - Blue & Yellow
okay the long story is... my phones mini-display (the one outside the flip) stopped working properly yesterday so i took it into the optus dealer today and they sent it off to get fixed, and i'm now using my old crappy phone... but... i forgot that i put all my numbers on my phone, and not on my sim card! cos my new phone has jazzy phone book features, you need to have the numbers on the phone to really utilize the jazziness, and i'm guessing they're going to reprogramme my phone and i'm going to lose all my numbers!
so... please... if you love me... txt me saying who it is so i have all your numbers... don't worry bel, jess, mishy and hailz i got yours.... but everyone else.... *gone*... i'm sad now :(
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Mar. 29th, 2005 @ 12:23 pm the weekend....
Feeling: cheerful
Okay okay so I’ve been off the radar a bit lately, and yes, I hate to admit it, but it is because I’m currently floating happily in the sea of coupledom… this boy of mine is just perfect, I want to have his babies.

Thursday night I worked at volt, pretty good night, doctors and nurses theme so I was dressed in scrubs which aren’t very flattering but heaps comfy! Friday I had lunch with Princess Emily, and then spent the afternoon at home (Andy was on call and away on a job all arvo) but that night we went to Spider Lounge in Altona (we wanted to go to a pub in Williamstown but they all closed at 11) and it is the scariest place I have ever been. It is like a bad Altona wog boy version of volt, but with pool tables and less patrons. But we were there for the company not for the venue so we stayed out till about 3am when Andy and I pulled the boring couple trick and went home early.

Saturday we went out for lunch, and then I had coffee with “I’m getting married next Saturday!!!!” Kate which was really good, I think she still loves me which is really important since I’m her bridesmaid in 4 days. Saturday night I went out with the LADIES, to VOLT of all places and lets just say I got nicely smashed and went a bit crazy and the night is a bit of a blur… stumbled home to my boy at about 5:30am, and yeah, Andy is a lil bit annoyed at me for the condition I was in when I got home, but hey, now he knows how I’ve felt the past three weeks he’s gone out and come home ridiculously drunk…

Sunday we did the family thing, his then mine, and then Emily rang in hysterics so I went over to her place to rescue her from her hormones, and didn’t end up going out to either Ally’s place or Anglers like I was hoping to….

Monday was lovely bludge day of eating chocolate, visiting friends, working on my car and massive family dinner at Andy’s….

Such a good weekend tho!!! Lil bit emo cos of Emily plus Andy and I are constantly in emo-mode because… well… its love, baby, its love hahaha

Gotta go to my docs appointment will add more later!
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Mar. 2nd, 2005 @ 10:06 pm (no subject)
Feeling: cheerful
Listening to: The Used - Let it Bleed
well.... not much to say really... its weird, when mah ladies aren't around, i really don't have much to report hahaha since they're all my *FUN*
altho i did go have a beer with Kristy on monday, i think she and I have pretty much sorted out our differences and she loves me again, so we're getting really excited about the black keys next thursday! we're probably gonna go out dancing afterwards, like to the depot or something!! have a girly night...
at the risk of getting sick of each other, andy and i have pretty much spent the last few days together, so i think i might let him spend the weekend playing with his mates... i don't want to ruin it by making it too intense too quickly... but geez he's hot... its like i'm addicted to him... hahaha
tomorrow night i think all the kids are going to NEXT as usual but I've agreed to look after lil miss 6 so that my parents can go to my other sisters graduation ceremony... if they get back at a decent time i might go, but i'll have to drive!! then friday night i'm having dinner with two friends from high school... but i'm still up for going out if mah ladies are going! paaaaaartay.... marquee moles!
saturday night i'm working at volt, so looking fwd to it, hopefully i'll be in a good mood and have lots of fun. unfort kristy is working on the door so i won't be able to *shake mah groove thang* with her behind the bar... i'll just have to bop on my own!! ALtho i might get Sarah behind the bar, she's fun too, but my arse always hurts after working with her... hahah how dodgy does that sound? lol. she's just a massive bottom slapper... hard too...
anyways... i'll update again once all the above happens! ciao meow
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Feb. 25th, 2005 @ 07:38 pm formal apology
Feeling: dirty
Listening to: Spice Girls - Stop
O.M.G. last night was messy. the girlies and i got to goo about 10, drank about 4 cruisers and a corona plus took lotsa booth photos (so hot right now!) and then went to next and continued getting FUCKED UP. lots of scotch, appletini's, beer... MESSY. i even threw up. altho i think that was mainly because at 4am i had been awake for 22 hours and had eaten fuck all all day, and was generally feeling like shit!!
oh my god. I am so sorry for the spectacle i made of myself, particular apologies to those tho actually have to admit to know me like mish and jess. lol. and mega apologies to all the boys that i just wouldn't leave alone!!! especially ben, jimmi & matt (who i don't know, or like, but i hope his nuts are okay!!) plus the boys who always put up with my crap like aaron and adam. and joel, i still don't like you. fukker.
and HAILZ i'm gonna KICK YOUR ASS... no apologies for you mah girlie, cos you were drunk as fuck, and doing SILLY things too!
so yeah. sorry kids.
hahaha
and not doing GSS tonight. not in the mood. we're going to marquee. AGAIN. 6 fridays in row. or is it 7? but i'm driving, cos i'm sooooo hung over, the idea of drinking is making my stomach flip!
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Feb. 23rd, 2005 @ 01:22 pm cultura
went and saw breed 77 last night with mish (oh & ben & kath & ally) and must say they were really really good. i thought there was something very Tea Party about them, but with harder vocals... speaking of vocals :O what a sexy man! hello! if the boys in Gibraltar all look like that, i'm going! but yeah, very good band, they get my thumbs up. infact i bought their cd, and when i get my car back tomorrow i'll have a listen and let you know how it goes... ohhhhh crap, it just occured to me that my Tea Party cd's have been sacrificed to the break-up gods as well! damn you! i'd better go by them again, edges of twilight is a "must have" on my list...
but yeah, my car is ready tomorrow, i'm so happy to be getting it back, i hate driving mums car cos she hasn't got a cd player which means i've been listening to THE RADIO for the last two weeks. and I HATE the radio!! i hear that "cos its all in my head, i think about it over and over again" song going to work, and home again, every day!! and if i'm bandsurfing and really lucky i'll hear it twice in one trip! damn you commercial radio gods! altho... i hear midas touch everyday too.... "you and i were meant to be, i'll be right beside you in e***SCRAAAAATCH*** doof doof " hahaha love it.
altho.. i must admit... drive time hosts are funny kids, kudos to Tim & Michelle on Fox and Fifi, Byron and ?? on Triple M, atleast once a trip they make me laugh out loud in my car. Fifi had me hysterically laughing yesterday i almost crashed.
ummmm uni goes back tonight aaaaarrrrghhhhhh three hours of Organisational Behaviour & Change aaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh
ladies... billboards on thursday... with some NEXT action afterwards.... w3rd...
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Feb. 4th, 2005 @ 04:34 pm ouch
Feeling: aggravated
i was in a car accident last night!
mish and i were turning right onto spencer st, i had a green light, started to turn and then this guy comes screaming thru the interection, i slam on my brakes and he scrapes the side of his car along the front of mine. lucky i wasn't going any faster or he would've slammed into the drivers door... probably squishing me!
but yeah, i'm alright, mish is alright, bit shaken... but yeah... NOT HAPPY JAN...

top 5 people
1. mish. love you. mwah. u make me laugh so much! and you were there last night!
2. matt. love that boy. yay for rise against and hatebreed 1st class view!
3. emily. she doesn't read this, so no reason needed. i just love her.
4. jess&hailz&bel (oooh threesome) cos you're all gorgeous. and fukn funny.
5. ben. for fun times at BDO. and showing me your rude bits.
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Feb. 2nd, 2005 @ 10:01 am ooohhhhh i'm old!
My sister is 6 today... unbelievable... feels like just yesterday i was cutting the umbilical cord at the hospital...
My best friend Chris is 25 tomorrow... we're getting old!!
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Feb. 1st, 2005 @ 09:45 pm massive day out
Feeling: sore
Listening to: Stone Temple Pilots - Plush
big day out... huge...
had an awesome time...
got there just after frenzal, was hoping to make it but as usual trying to organise lots of peeps made me late... found mish fairly quickly, saw some of my exboyfs mates which was really cool, they're cool guys, saw david (he broke up with his missus, suddenly so much nice to me, funny huh) when i saw emily, saw brooke (YAY!) and Rob, then Aaron (piss head!)... basically i didn't spend more than a couple of hours with any one person, oh and then kylie from work (who showed me and some boys her boobies!!!), and then jason (not fun, altho ignored successfully!) and then my ex's mates again, who i ended up going back to one of their places after BDO for more partaying and then Rob came and picked me up! (And got greeted at the door by three naked guys, try explaining THAT!!) That was the social aspect...
BANDS! i thought they were aaaaalll so good! of course i'm soooo biased....
LOVED: Eskimo joe, Rise against, John butler, Powderfinger, Slipknot
REALLY LIKED: Grinners, Hatebreed, Beastie Boys
MISSED (sadly): Frenzal Rhomb, Little Birdy, System, Gurge, Chemical Bros
As usual, spent waaaaay too much money ($8.50 for a can of jack? RIP OFF!) but had such an awesome time. so glad i had an RDO yesterday, needed the sleep in! plus meant i could have a lazy dinner with Kate, can you believe its only two months till she gets married!! woohoo!! i can't wait to be a bridesmaid again!
totally over boys at the moment, why do i insist on spending time with guys that i know aren't suited for me? altho i am excited to hear regularly from Al in europe, he's a hun, be awesome to catch up with him when he gets back. he's so... nice and NORMAL. and he's coming to black keys, woohoo, think its almost a date!
lots of partying this weekend, joanna back in the country so drinks with her on friday, and then b'day drinks with chris on saturday, should be good. AWESOME!
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Jan. 29th, 2005 @ 04:33 pm It's gotta be me...
Feeling: groggy
Listening to: N*Sync - It's Gotta Be Me
yes, i know i complained about holiday life being too hectic... but normal life is boring and there's nothing to write about on my lj! this week has been alright i spose...
Tues night (aus day eve) i worked at Volt, had an awesome fun night behind the bar despite being so tired from working all day at Bosch, but i had a bit of a hissy fit when i got sent home early. I work till 5.30am every single shift, but because everyone else wanted holiday rates and wanted to stay til close, my manager played favourites, and i got sent home early. Which is completely not fair. If he thinks i'm working till 5am tonight he's wrong. dead wrong. i'm going to BDO tomorrow and i'm not gonna be tired all day just to do him a favour.
Aus Day was slow and lazy, went to JB to buy my weekly CD's, i bought Eskimo Joe's Girl (*he* got that one in the divorce) and Stone Temple Pilot's Thank You. and they still didn't have TBE EP. can't wait for TBE gig. greg if you don't get out of work that night i'll kick your arse. oh and the Grand Silent System are playing that weekend too, so i might go to that.
Went to Next on thurs, had a pretty good night even tho i left by 1, hung out with bel&sam a bit, did some bad dancing with jess&hailz up in party room to greg-tunes and played with mish&bec too. love those girls.
Last night i went to the espy with bel, jess, mish and hailz to watch my mate steve's band... i'd never seen them before, it was an eye opening experience. they were so trapped in the late 80's. i now know why steve has a long blonde "i'm a bad rock kid" hairstyle - its a prerequisite to be in his band!!! not bad tho, i enjoyed them. disappointed i didn't get to spend some time with steve as the girls wanted to bail, but i spoke briefly with his brother who is GORGEOUS. I think I'm in love.
Afterwards we went to marquee club, again, altho cos of the tight arse security, jess bel & mish went home, which was a real bummer cos i know jess wanted to play... anyways, hailz and i ended up staying... missed jess lots, so i perved on her cute bar boy for her, and even danced to madonna! i laughed my ass off all night, hailz was hilarious, and we danced all night. The music is... bad... and we... LOVED IT!!!! i've been enjoying going out and just having fun so much lately, i'm so not into picking up at the moment. i just love having a good time and laughing with my friends. i did mess with a few boys tho, just having a laugh with them and stuff. chatted to a couple of cuties but that about as far as it went, hailz was my date that night!
today i've been bumming around in my cookie monster pj's, spent some time with my dad (makes a nice change) and tonight i'm working at Volt.
Tomorrow is BDO! just sorting out who i'm seeing, and when, now!
So many cools bands and stuff coming up!
BDO tomorrow
D&D Ball 12th Feb
St Kilda Festival 13th Feb
TGSS 25th Feb
TBE 26th Feb
Black Keys 11th March
Violent Femmes 13th March
how exciting!!
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Jan. 23rd, 2005 @ 10:19 pm atleast i'm not Ron this time...
Feeling: bouncy
Listening to: Oasis - Live Forever
You scored as Hermione Granger. You're one intelligent witch, but you have a hard time believing it and require constant reassurance. You are a very supportive friend who would do anything and everything to help her friends out.

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Hermione Granger

75%

Severus Snape

70%

Remus Lupin

70%

Sirius Black

65%

Ginny Weasley

65%

Ron Weasley

55%

Draco Malfoy

55%

Albus Dumbledore

55%

Harry Potter

40%

Lord Voldemort

35%

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Jan. 21st, 2005 @ 08:51 am too much emo!
Feeling: mellow
NO WAY!!! This emo-nita thing is getting out of hand!!!

You scored as Emo & More. Emo and Screamo.

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Emo & More

79%

Indie

67%

Classic Rock.

63%

Punk and Pop Punk.

63%

Indie Rock

58%

Britpop

46%

Mainstream

42%

Country

38%

Industrial

38%

Hardcore

33%

Ska

33%

Hip Hop and Rap

21%

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went to next last night for a couple of hours... okay, who gave greg a microphone??? fun tho, love those kids, always good to see everyone.
oh and bloody boost juice boy calls me at 4 o'clock in the fukn morning!!
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Jan. 3rd, 2005 @ 01:44 pm oh i forgot my top 5....
Feeling: bouncy
Listening to: The Used - The Taste of Ink
my top 5 peoples at the beginning of 2005...

#1: Mish aka [info]xmishyx for reasons mentioned in previous entry, she's just reminds me so much of me sometimes its crazy! and we have fun together, i feel like we can just hang out and theres no pressure to be *coooool*

#2: Brooke aka [info]treztrez for letting me and so many of my random friends crash at her house! and for being the best fun at pyramid and drinking more than i've ever seen one person drink, and being drunk the entire weekend. I don't think you were sober once chicky and that makes me proud!!!

#3: Aaron aka [info]di0deus and Ash [info]inyourworld (couples count as one hahaha) for proving to be lots of pyramid fun, and especially aaron who i spent so much time with during the festival, and who forgave me for being a bitch, and always has big cuddles for me... oh and hopefully will also forgive me for turning him in a mouse... oh and ash for picking me up after the countdown and twirling me around like i weighed about 40 kgs... *sigh* it was a nice illusion....

#4: Bel aka [info]belie for being gorgeous!! and always being up for a perve fest even if she's got a boyf.... and for having worst taste in men then i do, i'm sorry hun but that guy was feral. oh except she has excellent taste in boyfriends, mmmm teddy!

#5: ummmmmm Rob aka "boost juice boy", "fresh frankenbok" or "wanker from switch"... because he was good pyramid fun! ;) :D nah all dodginess aside, he was good company and made me laugh, just wish he wasn't so sad about his ex-gf :(

hmmmmm can i have a #6 too?
#6: benji and dewani for being good company for me and mish last night, spec benji for being a CRAZY (but spunky! haha) KID
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Dec. 28th, 2004 @ 01:26 pm too many updates but i'm bored
Feeling: chipper
Listening to: Dido - Hunter
updatin lots aren't i - i'm on holidays i'm bored
goo sunday was interesting, had to drink a bit when i first arrived to catch up with the very drunken [info]belie and [info]jesseatworld. spent a lot of the night talking to Lisa, I think she is just great. found out my friends all deserted me so looked for new people to play with, which is fairly easy at goo. saw rob again, geez he's spunky. danced my ass off again with smudge and jutta, lots of fun fun fun. stayed till stumps and cabbed it home with [info]dj_veg
yesterday i went out for coffee with a boy named alex, interesting guy, different to who i normally spend time with, he's leaving for europe today but i hope to see him again when he gets back in a couple of months.
last night was kate's 25th at her beach house in torquay. thought it was gonna be drunken beachy fun, got there to find out it was her, and her fiancee, her parents, her sister&boyf, a married couple from church, another chick from church and me. WOWWEEEEE what a barrel of laughs it turned out to be. I left before midnight, but only because they were going to BED.
so drove home, was just getting ready for bed when David called "heeey come over i'm at em's place" so i headed over there and hung out with some very cool peoples for the rest of the night, but i was a good girl and didn't drink (or anything else) so i actually feel normal today!!
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Dec. 26th, 2004 @ 06:36 pm post-xmas....
Feeling: amused
Listening to: Scissor Sisters - Laura
yay i got cookie monster pj's, a harry potter pencil tin, and money for a big day out ticket!
Harry the hunstman (yes i named him) is currently MIA but i suspect he's back in the bathroom - he was above my computer yesterday... kinda nice having a friend in here... hahaha
went to a house party last night, got dragged along by emily and pete, and about two hours later David showed up, should've realised i might have seen him, since his sister is good mates with the people who's house it was... but yeah, was nice to see him and stuff... hehe.. stuff...
tonight is boxing day goo, rumors are its the last one at the metro, so i HAVE to go and say farewell cos i don't see me going to the metro for any other reason...
can hear my dad screaming at my dog, better go save her... stupid mutt...
ciao meow
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